hotmetalpress.net winter 2011
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when her child died
she closed her lips and would
never open them again
there was nothing and nothingness
something happened but it was nothing
she did not say so
but her stomach hurt and her eyes
were heavy not with sleep
heavy with the burden of this nothing
which had entered the world
like a shadow creeping into the corner
under the bed or spying through
the slit in the closet door when she had first seen
such obsequious terror
she did not think she was speaking
because her lips would not say
and they did not
even when someone would laugh
at one of her absurd remarks
but she nodded to herself
knowing that no one could see
where she was sitting alone
on a huge stone and scattering
ashes
humming through her bitter lips
that favorite lullaby
The Blue Woman's Sunny Day
probably the UPS man would come today
so she waited in a frail pretty dress
a party dress
to open a package
she would need her hair cutting scissors
and remembered to fetch them
although she felt giddy
The UPS man would come all in brown
except for his endless blue eyes on her
he would wonder why she got this package
but not what was in it
he would narrow his blue eyes
checking out Blue Woman
and deciding what she deserved and what
she would want
If Blue Woman looked very happy
he would be happy
he was so handsome
UPS man believed it was he
who made this happiness
since it was his job
after all
such a nice guy she thought
and then she took the haircutting scissors
and cut the tape on the package
tissue paper puffed out like butterflies
in a wind blowing bubbles
the UPS box was full of light-as-nothingness
fragile as the child holding hands
climbing the stairs with dimpled legs
and the child swinging higher and
higher into the twirling sun
calling all the birds and the blueness
of sky
and Blue Woman's name.