dear tremolo,







(1)



a portal                                   a chest held together by multifarious hands



an opera an overtone                                                                                the
space between here and hear

















I have always dreamed of you                                           through you









































this is the place where I can locate sensual data                                            





each body                             each satchel











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the consumptional difference between what is always tilling me

















          and the most thorough                       BEAST-LEDGER



































honey poured over peanuts                                                               memory as
the basin of each proclamation



























FETALITIES                                                         FATALITIES



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what having sex with the matter can do                                           to the
manifestation of tactility as a practice

















a break in the pre that so induces the future to





how I felt like I had been sold



and thereby could not confiscate or name



































since then this daily            :::::::::::::::::::::::::::     as an activism

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(2)







renegade nun











acetone monk













                        neoteric hermitage















I write to this space because I am hungry                       and
you                                 are here







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amorphous tones                                                 sitting in a warm

















gathering of water under the most pungent icy sky











a story

















that reverses its internal decibels                      as it describes



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I want to take you



peel your skins                                     to caress the thicker



shivering





































where you and I no longer maintain separate identities





but are exact





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(3)



an embodiable culture spoken as omnipotence                



as decadence





















the cultivation of imagination’s genitalia





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this the variant pronoun













we begin no differently than any original                        







an incendiary couch



through a window

like frida kahlo's last minute jolt                                         as her body





















stinging and her hair ablaze                               and the cut in her lips          





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not unlike the feeling of the color of silver

not unlike the feeling of the color
julia hastain believes in writing or:
how we mark ourselves through
the specific engagement which we
have with matter. julia has been
published by hot whiskey,
livestock press, transmissions and
guilty as charged. julia's
chapbooks include:
compilate;quantum inversions,
transpoetics;at motion that refuses
to sinew, amniotica;nocturnes of
desire, andrometrics;of where
what is both and pomace. julia
lives in boulder colorado and is
attaining an MFA in poetry from the
jack kerouac school of
disembodied poetics.