BERNADETTE KAZMARSKI
I am a self-employed graphic
and web designer, illustrator,
fine artist and writer,
combining a degree in English
and a love of art, animals and
nature to create logos,
brochures, websites, portraits
and paintings of the things we
love and the world around us.
While I have had much
“professional” writing
published, I have never had
any “creative” writing
published aside from a poem
anthologized my senior year in
college, a rather long time
between efforts though I’ve
been writing all along.

In addition to art and design, I
apply my skills in marketing
and promotion both
professionally and as a
volunteer to social and
environmental issues such as
animal welfare, local
environmental remediation,
education and recreation, and
business and community
development in my hometown
of Carnegie, Pennsylvania, in
which capacity I am the
director of Carnegie
Renaissance, a non-profit
organization of business
owners and residents who are
working to beautify and
revitalize the downtown area
and the borough. It is from all
these efforts plus daily life
that I draw much of my
inspiration.



APPLES FOR MY LOVE


I read a poem

About another poem

Read to a young boy by his second-grade teacher

Which caused him to fall in love with her

And carry her memory through all his mornings and evenings

Inspiring his life as a poet and lover,

The premise of the poem I don’t know to be true,

About a tradition of lovers in France

To leave an apple on the bedside table at retiring

So in the morning they could share a bite upon waking

To cleanse the night must, then kiss to begin the new day together

Sweet and satisfying to each other.

Whether true or not,

And though you are as distant as that boy and his teacher and the
poem and the apple,

I will leave an apple at my bedside

For the morning when, finally, you are with me.





June



Dusk shadows sparkle with fireflies,

Air perfumed, heavy:

June.





ROAD TRIP, LATE JULY, WESTERN PENNSYLVANIA



Green, green waves ahead

diminishing to blue over the northern horizon

exalted rises and shadowed valleys gradually made plain

to rolling hills and misted hollows

interstate unrolled as ribbon

around hill and following valley,

signs noting unseen destinations

bearing hopeful small town names:

“Freedom”

“Prosperity”

“Harmony”

little hamlets of Pennsylvania coal being crushed to diamonds,

glittering in the vales;

a gauze curtain of rain shower flows across hills

soaking opposite side of road

but the sun shines brightly ahead,

occasionally a sudden cluster of official orange obstructions

gives instructions to change directions

slowing pace to allow a close and careful study

of native plants along the roadside,

a stately brick farmhouse, a skull with empty windows, abandoned, its
outbuildings only roofs in the tall grass

as if melting back into the earth from whence they were created;

then a curving exit that leaves the noise of four lanes behind a rise,

a sojourn on a quiet two-lane three-digit backroad,

once the lifeline before the interstate, now empty;

clusters of buildings at intersections, one traffic light flashing yellow,

old farms and equipment,

rusted industrial structures,

a field gone entirely to Queen Anne’s Lace,

some cows on a hillside,

and everywhere roadside stands

celebrate the first flush of mid-summer bounty;

collect loose change from pockets and floor of car

and with the dole,

buy fresh homegrown sweet corn to feed thy soul.





ENTERING PARADISE
On the death of a downy woodpecker who ran into my window.


I can only hope that

her heart was filled with the joy of the unfolding spring

and that she saw paradise reflected in the glass of my window.





Like a Tree


July 5, 2000



To live my life like a tree,

to grow steadily from small beginnings,

fervently when possible, and quietly adapt when necessary,

stand in peace and harmony with my neighbors,

bear my fruit appropriately,

bring shelter and comfort to others indiscriminately,

and when my season is over

graciously give my gift to the earth

for the benefit of myself and all around me,

and without fear

patiently wait for my moment to return

in spring.





AFTERNOON ROMANCE




A woman’s wail, beginning low and slow,

arose in the heavy August afternoon,

exiting an open, unscreened, uncurtained window

of a ragged apartment building,

lifting and curling

over the street,

reaching a high-pitched shriek of ecstasy

in the oppressive sun,

above buildings, cars, trees,

swirling among the clouds,

for the moment the food stamps,

unaffordable car repairs,

the kids’ bathing suits

forgotten,

pushed away with the dreams

of the college degree and career,

the loving husband and new house,

perfect children,

perfect life,

this is real.





Dogwoods


May 27, 2005



The dogwoods are blooming up and down my street.

The breaking of the cold,

The unusually warm, brilliant spring day

Has brought my neighbors out to wash cars and cut grass.

Like the returning birds

Their conversations drift and circle from yard to yard

And cross the street on capricious breezes;

We have been put away all winter

Like articles of summer clothing

Our potential at rest,

Yet now, even at night,

Pale, airy clouds of blossoms

Hover in the darkness all over the neighborhood.
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